Nothing

When I came to, I saw nothing but darkness.
I feel nothing but the cold.
I hear nothing but the silence.
I smell nothing and I taste nothing.
Yet, I feel, I feel that I "am".
I felt confusion.
"Where am I?
Who am I?
What am I?"
I asked, to the blinding darkness surrounding me.
I asked, to the burning coldness covering me.
I asked, to the deafening silence around me.
I asked, to everything that is not, to nothing that is.
But there was no answer.
I felt frustrated.
"Where are the others?
Why am I alone?
Why am I here?"
I asked further.
"Please, anyone, anything, answer me!"
I felt anger.
"Just answer me! I don't care how! I don't care what! Just say something! Whatever it is!!"
I felt fear.
"Please, I am begging you!
Am I alone?
Is there no one else here?
Is there nothing but me?
No, it can't be! Someone must be here!"
But my voice is unheard, for there are no ears to hear with.
But my body is unseen, for there are no eyes to see it.
I felt, loneliness.
"Why am I alone?
I want someone with me!
I want a friend beside me.
I just, I just want a companion.
I don't care who it is, I just, I feel,
I feel, I, I,"
I felt sadness.
I cried, and I cried, to an empty void.
But my cries fell on deaf ears, for there are no ears to hear me.
I felt hatred.
I begin to curse myself.
I begin to condemn myself.
I begin to hate myself.
"I wished I never exist!
I wished I can't feel at all!
I wished I can just destroy myself!
I wished I can just fade away.
I wish, I wish I can get rid of my pain..."
I felt desire.
I tried to distract myself.
Using anything I can use.
I distract myself with wealth.
I distract myself with beauty.
I distract myself with intelligence.
I distract myself with pride.
I distract myself with pleasure.
I felt lust.
But none of it satisfies me.
I want more.
I wish for more.
I asked for more.
I felt greed.
I wished to keep all for myself.
I want it all for me, and me alone.
I begin to protect it.
I begin to hold it tightly.
I refuse to let go.
I felt ignorance.
But the truth would knock at my door, the truth of myself.
So I slammed the door shut, and continued.
The truth began to open the door itself, I locked it.
It unlocks the door, I nailed the door.
It unnails the door, I go deeper.
It follows, so I walk faster.
It runs, so I try to escape and outrun it.
I felt despair.
It was useless, it came to me,
And I felt it again,
the pain of it all.
I realized, it was all meaningless.
I can't run anymore.
I can't escape.
Nowhere to run.
Nowhere to hide.
I came back,
to where I started.
It was meaningless.
There is no use.
No use.
No meaning.
Useless.
Meaningless.
Nothing.
Nothing
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-TO BE CONTINUED-

A New Blog

Well, this is odd, why am I making a new blog?
You may be familiar with my other blog about my ideas.
The reason I am making a new one, is because the other blog is for my philosophical and logical ideas.
While this blog, will contain, stories!
I actually have a hidden talent in writing stories...
But no one knows about it, so perhaps I'll give it a try...
Though I won't post here as often as in the other blog.
But anyway, I hope you enjoy and have a nice day!